Memorable Visit

S is the Enterprise Architect and he visited us over the weekend. It was a real eye-opening to see him in action, handling/reacting to my managers and Big boss queries and "traps".

Over the 2 days, my bosses presented the company project approach and fed him information constantly about the new company initiative. I assumed that he operated at a "high level" but he shows that he is able to get into details discussion.

I suspects he is hiding more than he is showing. He shown me how to be always be positive and make people feel at ease. He is non-confrontational and seek a ground that either answers in the positive or negative. I am learn from him this point, and it will be constant struggle for me because of my perfectionist nature.

You get what u give - New Radical.

No matter what the sunshine is

The reflected sun light from the opposite block is the same 10 years ago as it is now. Clothes on banbo pole are still flying in the same way in the wind as before. The same blight sun light is still shining clearly the inside of opposite home as before.

Why do my eyes do not see them the same as it was 10 years ago? What is different then? What have changed? Why do I see them always with a tingle of sadness? Is it the passing of tough stretching life experiences that caused this? Or could it be I always look at them after a passing of a period where my values system are tested?

I realized now that no matter what I have experienced and endured, it is a reminder of a part that is constant in my life. A reference from which I am able to compare what was before against what I have earn in life badges of stress, happiness and sadness.

Boyszone - No matter what

Her love was always conditional

From that moment that she told me her ex always keep in touch with her through out the day, for the times she show care only when i touches her heart, her love to me was alway conditional. And conditional love is never true love. Love is always unconditional, for it will always be there even if the conditions are removed.

I really liked her and my love certainly blinded me to this. It is only today that I realized this blindness in me. Time aways from it helps to clear away the fuzzy dovely blindness that prevent me to see clearly.

I should have known that she does not really loves me when she could not decides between me and the 3rd party. From that moment, it casts in the doubts and questions whether her past affections and actions are really sincere and true. Like a crippling sickness, the doubts creeps and snakes around what should be good memories and render them into falsehood and cynical dreams. For the one year together, nothing left but salt water and a hurting heart.

This episode pains me but I must remember the lesson I take away from this. There is fine line between what you can work together upon and when you decides it is not unacceptable. If there is no progress towards working to resolve a issue, it is time to decides if it means that it is not acceptable to me OR the other party is not giving in the required time and efforts.

Aztec Camera - How Men are