Chapter Closed

One chapter of my life finally closed today. From today, its no longer hold me back. I am able to see with a clear conscious that I did no wrong in the past that I should owe up to. A betrayal warrant the response I gave and it is justifiable.

All relationship are fated. They starts and ends when it is destiny calls.

Good Girl Gone Bad - Rihanna

Glossolalia (Speaking in tongues)

Rev Dr Richard Roberts provides a good explanation to a matter which I was puzzled and uncomfortable with, that is speaking in tongues. To me, a person speaking in tongue is more lunatic cos there no ones to translates what he is saying.  No-ones will not know if there is message in it at all. 

As I watched the City Harvest internet feed of its worship last Sunday, he educated me on that it is the Spirit in the person that is speaking when a person speaks in tongues.  To make the mind understand the Spirit words, he encourage the speaker to speak in his own languages after speaking in tongues so that his mind understands what God is saying.  Let the first words that came flows out, he encouraged.  As he explains it, it make perfect sense to have the speaker explains what he spokes in tongues.  Let the person mind understand what the Spirit is saying.

ps:  Luckily I did not travel all the way to Expo because my nose ran faster in the afternoon. :>>

Legs still aching after passion

Joined W and SL for the East Coast Passion Run last Sunday (08-07-2007). I clocked 01 hr 02 min 53 sec for 10 km run. It was a nice change for Sunday. EC was quiet and full of breeze that day.

Before the run:




After the run:

One very expensive coffee

This was a very sweet and expensive coffee. It called Azuni and it costed me $7.50. I drank it last Saturday because I needed a drink and had 1 hour to spare before my next appointment. Sweet and nice. It kept me awake till 1am that day.

The longest time

It was the longest time, a period where I am confused and not sure of how I landed myself in today job situation, now I can pin pointed the exact moment to July 2006. Then, I should have force myself to take a good rest to recharge and absorb the prior experiences.

Instead, I accepted a project assignment with a new boss and a new environment. From then, when my role did not align with my value of taking ownership and responsibility, it bring more tiredness and confusion to my already fatigued stressed out mind.

The subsequent events that followed did not allow me to follow up on my deep subliminal desire to rest. And the outcome is what I am not proud to repeat and tell others.

What would have happened if on July 2006 I decided to rest? I might still be at CSA and would not have learned what I had learned from than till now,
to learn how to appreciate a good boss,
to learn what is bad boss,
to learn there is a world beyond vendor environment,
to learn that I always seek responsibility,
to learn that I need to find the lost positive altitude I have
to learn to take time off to rest and absorb learning experience when I am fatigued.

Knowing now the cause helps to put to rest the doubts I have about my ability. Its adds a sense of confidence and self-esteem into me and helped me to recognize the "bottleneck" in my career which I must plan to overcame.

:)